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i really didn’t want people to read the post i posted before this. it’s just too depressing.

————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————– please, if you have something else to do, don’t read my blog————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————– I feel like a failure. All my ideas are lame - my design studio lecturer kindly tells me that my design is very literal … After the interview session this afternoon I’ve been thinking (miserably) that ALL my works this semester are crap. The 1st presentation for Architecture History, I wasn’t given a chance to present properly due to the lack of time. The 1st assignment for AutoCAD 3D was .. well i thought that the only good thing about our improved work is that the video transitions matched the music. The 1st project in studio, I got a really poor result and my actual model went missing and I can’t find it. The 1st test I sat for, I knew I didn’t do very well but I didn’t expect all those answers to be wrong. The later assignments were no good either. i’m not blaming my charming team mates, i’m just frusturated with myself. am i really that difficult and stupid? has my brain malfunctioned? when i read novels these days i no longer need a dictionary but when i have to talk about my design i struggle for words. i sleep too much. i waste many hours doing unnecessary stuff. i am still unsure how to spell unnecessary. gosh i really feel stupid. i want to blurt all this out the moment i formulated these words on the way home just now. that’s the reason why i’m typing this right now instead of doing my assignments. i feel horrible!!!!! (I typed this at 8pm, but Friendster has problems posting it up for me =.= ) I know it’s no use pouting over the past and I must move on and try to do better next time. I think I must’ve offended a spirit during these two Chinese 7th months … oh shoot I just realised I’ve forgotten to pray before dinner…