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i love the 13th and 14th of October this year, it’s given me so many opportunities to train myself.

firstly i train my physical strength by doing a lot of work(in my humble opinion) for the Hilton Xmas train project on site as well as transporting goods. my efforts are not relatively significant but i kinda overstretched myself without realizing it

i also trained my navigation skills around the roads between college and Hilton while looking for 7 elevens as well as in Hilton itself from the parking lot to the work site - i’m bad at directions

my emotional control got trained as well watching the Life Sdn. Bhd. play regarding breast cancer. luckily my mom accompanied me to watch. it’s so touching

trained my patience waiting for heroes to finish downloading .. lol

exercised my hand-eye-brain coordination playing the piano, transposing scores, while listening to my dear teacher talk about vegetable prices

restrained myself from thinking obsessively about WEST (heroes)

forced myself to squeeze in time to do work for hilton and college assignments

suppressed disappointment for … well alot of little, unimportant things. it’s ok, you people gave me a nice chance to exercise my open-mindedness and forgiveness. thank you very much i just hope whoever reads this will read it with an equally open mind and not think that i’m typing this out of selfish anger or anything. i owe alot of people alot of things, i’m grateful to alot of people for alot of things, i really wish i can say alot of things to these people. things like THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU, TAKE CARE… for i never know what will happen tomorrow. NO IM NOT FEELING SUICIDAL …

ahh typing all that exercised my fingers as well .. lol. i’m glad at least i’ve penned my thoughts somewhere so i won’t forget today. my memory is so sucky nowadays :p

i can’t believe that i chose my beauty sleep over my interim crit submission worth 10% marks last night and this morning UHHHHH so sick of myself pigging out on the sofa, the sofa, the floor, my room sofa…! in the end i managed to put together some abysmal drawings and an even more pathetic model for submission, but i was some 3 1/2 hours late!!!! lalala.
we went to PJ hilton for buka puasa dinner. free. coz we’re in the xmas train project.
we’re like a bunch of kids just going there to have fun coz we played with gummy bears and took lotsa photos and jiunn’s unnecessary screams … lol
see my facebook account for the photos. ashley’s DSLR photos are even better :p

i_wanna_go_shopping_liao~ l_a_z_y!!!!
plus it’s my brother’s birthday tomorrow - uh i mean today 11th oct. he wants some weird sports thingy to train his leg muscles o.0  ….. okay i shall try to get it .. but no guarantees k… hehehe…

being_lame_helps_me_keep_awake_but_once_my_mind_shuts_down_stubbornly_aaargh!!there goes a few hours wasted in sleeping. aaargh homework still not done.

btw i had THE BEST DREAM EVER last night (the 1st time i fell asleep on the sofa)
we were holidaying in some forest retreat house and we’re about to have sweet snacks upstairs in the master bedroom coz keong bought lotsa chocs & candy (-.-") and suddenly we’re in this huge hot air balloon and i was telling carine how i wish to climb up those ropes (o.0") then before that i had a wild experience driving a mercedes convertible - and turned into the wrong lane going the opposite direction and dunno y i’m driving from the back seat and there’re alot of ppl in front blocking… gosh!! and i dreamt that we’re watching a tv drama and the main character just found out that…. okay okay too much!!! i woke up in complete confusion and my mom bluffed me that my nose turned black in colour. my brother convinced me, saying it’s like someone punched me. pointed out the "spot" for me. had to run to the mirror to check while my mom laughed and laughed -.-"
okay it’s not the best dream ever but it did kinda fulfill a few of my wishes like driving the mes and going on a holiday and watching tv - do you know that i have not touched a tv remote since first week of july?! and that i still haven’t watched TRANSFORMERS?! lol and it’s NOT because i’m a sluggish little slug -.-"

This is a song i’ll never fully understand.. but i feel so much empathy for..

Minnie Driver - Learn to be lonely (Phantom of the Opera credits-roll song)

Child of the wilderness

Born into emptiness

Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you

Comfort and care for you

Learn to be lonely

Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed, out in the world

There are arms to hold you

You’ve always known

Your heart was on it’s own

So laugh in your loneliness

Child of the wilderness

Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love

Life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely

Life can be lived

Life can be loved

Alone

quite sad right? but the song is so beautiful *_*